 Before you were born, I saw you in my dreams like every mother does. You were running and laughing, you were talking and smiling, at me. In my dreams you called me Mommy, and we snuggled together. Then you told me you loved me as big as the sky. Then autism steps in and takes you away. I miss you my son, "why did you have to go away"? Come back to me. Please... don't go! You see it was all just a dream, that's how things were supposed to be. I never got to know you that way. You don't look at me, talk to me, or tell me you love me. We don't snuggle together and you don't call me Mommy. Oh how my heart aches for you to call me Mommy! Life has been a challenge together and as you got older you got stronger and they made you go away. I miss you my son and I want you to know, I didn't want you to go! I miss you and all of your ways. I'll take the good with the bad, because when Autism stepped in I got you... the best son I could ever have! So I'll just keep on dreaming of the day, when you... Look at me, talk to me, tell me you love me as big as the sky. We'll snuggle together and you can call me Mommy. Oh how my heart aches for you to call me Mommy! Written by Tina Wiedenhoft 5/16/08 For my beautiful son CJ and all the moms of autistic children who are waiting to hear there voices. Waiting to be called MOMMY! © Tina Wiedenhoft |